This Post Is Not Perfect - I'm Letting It Go

When I say I'm letting "it" go, I'm not talking about a physical thing, but time, task, and commitment things. I've been in the midst of moderate chaos (my father has been in and out of the hospital), and plans had to be shifted. Some things didn't work the way I usually want them to, so I had to make some choices. For instance:

- I'm traveling back and forth a bunch from Alabama, and I might not be home in time to make dinner for the kids - I have to let it go. There's food in the house, they're resourceful, they can make a sandwich. They won't starve.  I can let it go.

- I might have to shift or cancel some clients. OR, I might have to let the hospital attend to my dad while I deal with work that can't be delayed (letting go of my Enneagram Type 3 need to try to hold everything together). I might miss a client, I might miss a meeting with a doctor. Let it go.

- And wouldn't you know, my husband's flight home from a business trip is delayed, and he'll be gone an extra night. I might have to ask for some help with juggling meetings and picking up kids. People are usually wonderful about helping, but I almost never ask because I don't want to impose. Let that go.

- I might just have to skip laundry, or taking out the recycling, or calling a friend to chat. Partially because I've got to get some camp forms filled out, and partially because I'm exhausted. Let it go.  

How do I decide what I need to focus on? Which task or commitment is the right one? I need to pick the ones that seem to make sense in the moment and move on. I may make a mistake. I probably will. Last time I checked the Earth was still rotating on its axis. Things will eventually settle down, and I can make decisions based upon goals and priorities and all that other good productivity-ish stuff...and feel in control again (as if we are ever truly in control). But for now, I'm going to let it go.

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